Well today I am sitting at work waiting for the day to end. It is my last day to be here for a couple of weeks. Tomorrow is my surgery and I have to admit I am a little anxious, even a little worried. I have put it in God's hands so I know I am not in control and it is all up to the big guy upstairs. 

I have gone through a lot of emotions over the last few days and have fought with myself over the whole situation. I am at the point now where I have accepted there is a chance something could go wrong but that thought is far out weighed by the pros. I have a chance to get my weight down and live a healthy and long life. I want to be around a long time with Leenie and the kids I am hoped to be blessed with in the upcoming months. I am ready to get this thing done so I can start living a new life.

I am more worried about Leenie than I am myself. She is really having to deal with a lot because of this and I feel horrible for putting her through this. I don't want to her to have to face something happening to me but in the same thought I know by doing this I will be adding many more years worth of time to my life which I am blessed to get to spend with her.

I know it sounds like a bi polar blog right now but I am truly scared and excited at the same time. The thought of being able to finally lose the weight and live like a normal person is something I never thought I would be able to do. 

Hopefully everything will go well tomorrow and I will be home sometime Thursday and can start my journey to healthy. I'll be posting some before and after pictures through out the process to keep everyone up to date.

I know there are only a few that read my blog (or at least that I know read it) and I appreciate you all going on this journey with me. 

Lord willing I will post again Thursday when I get home. 

To all my friends and family I love you and appreciate you being here and listening to my ramblings.

My great grandmother always told me to never say goodbye because that is forever (yes that is why I always hang up the phone without saying bye) so I will sign off with this

“There will always be those who feel more comfortable not venturing from the warmth of the hearth, but there are those who prefer to look out the window and wonder what is beyond the horizon.” 
― Jimmy Buffett, A Salty Piece of Land